Oh Alex. My heart feels the pain of your loss. Not the actual pain of YOUR loss as that is something only you go through. Yet, we went through 18 to 20 months of ten losses, all close...and one suicide. To be honest, the pain of loss doesn't really leave. We work around it and live life differently. We will have trigger moments where we shed a tear, or other moments when we smile or laugh out loud at good or funny memories. Just by putting pen to paper, writing down your emotions, your thoughts, your musings is healing. Bless you both. Love from Scotland.
I feel the mourning in my soul, our Isabel crossed the rainbow bridge in January, my hole deep, my only “baby”. The two I carried inside me never took a breath, Isabel made me a momma. I cry often yet put on a brave face. The struggle is hard. Life moves on, much to look forward to though it won’t be the same.
I’m sorry you and Kelly have suffered such loss in the last few years, sending hugs to you both.
Your pain is palpable through your words. It’s difficult when we have these kinds of times happen. Death is never easy to face at any time, tougher still when it seems to just not stop. I went through a lifetime like that between 8/2003-11/2004 with losing 8 close people. It takes time to recover.
Writing is a salve which we can apply liberally and as often as needed. No prescription needed, no critics allowed. Stay true to what you do so well and to yourself. ❤️
I finally felt like I could read your writing. My little girl Yuma passed away on May 25, 2024. Two days before my birthday. I had prayed to God to please take her in her sleep because I didn’t want her to die in a clinical setting and I hated making the final decision. The decision still haunts me but I’m so grateful that she didn’t die in her sleep. I held her in my arms while the vet gave the injection. With my right hand I felt her last heart beat and in my left ear I heard her final pant. I just hope she felt comforted by me holding her so close. I cry every day. I’ve only picked up her bed from the kitchen. Her bed in our bedroom is still there. I still say goodnight to her every night. I still thank God for her every night. So much more to say. Thanks for sharing. Peace
Wow, I felt all of that. It hurt my heart and made me think of my passed away fur children. Its always sad, but later its nice to think of funny stuff or sweet stuff they did. When its your time to leave this earth, Pilgrim will be waiting on you along with everyone that you love who has gone before you.
My husband and I are at an age where we attend funerals instead of baby showers but we have each other, 2 living kids, 8 grandkids , my mom and my late son’s and widow-her new husband and the bonus granddaughter.
Our son’s death at age 36 of Frontal Temporal Dementia knocked us sideways, sucked the air from our world but we have family and 2 corgis and 2 cats to love and live for.
The sun rises everyday and we must meet our ourselves and thrive.
I know where you are coming from, my 12 year old who was my heart granddaughter Ayla shot and killed herself and I have never felt so much pain in my life and then I lost my little dog Coco. GOD BLESS
Alex, I can't begin to tell you how touched I was listening to you and reading this from you about loss.
I have always said that the thing that bothers me the most about getting older, is that the people I have had in my life were getting much older, and I began to loose them. One by one, I had to say goodbye to the people I have loved for a lifetime. I did not deal with it well at all. I am a Christian, and my faith helped me to come to terms with the fact, that dying is something we all will have to experience.
I believe what scares us the most about death, is the unknown. I have been a huge Harry Potter fan since my youngest daughter was in school and those books came out and I started reading them with her, trying to get the stinker to love reading. She adored those books. Anyway, y know I ramble ☺️, When his Godfather, Sirius Black died, and Harry asked his spirit if dying hurt, he replied “It's easier than falling asleep “, and that has stuck with me. I know thst may sound childish to some. But it actually gave me a peace about going to the next journey. Of course, as a Christian I believe that it is not the end, but if I have lived a good life as God tells me to in the Bible, I will have a journey ahead so wonderful my mind can't even comprehend.
Even all the trials and troubles we have all faced, have helped make us the person we are.
The most important thing to me, is to let the good things in our past take more hold on us and the bad things show us what kind of life and person we don't want to be.
You are a precious soul. You and Kelly are so sweet and have hearts bigger than the state you live in. You are good people, and I know you are going to be so happy with Kelly by your side from now on. Cherish each other, and Every. Single. Second., that you get to spend time with each other. Never take each other for granted.
I have been a widow (I hate that word) for almost 12 years now. I miss him every day, and yes, I still talk to him a lot 😉❤️.
Try not to get to bogged down in losing loved ones, but continue to cherish their memories and keep them alive and close by talking about them, recalling happy times, and celebrating their lives. And while you do that, live your life to the fullest! ✨🌹 With compassion and love and caring,
P. S., to the other thing I wrote. I also still have crying spells, and get sad about losing my loved ones. That is something that is very normal, and we will always have times when our hearts are so full of love for them still, it overflows in tears of sadness because we can't get a hug and kiss and miss their physical presence so much. We just have to get thru those times as best we can. ✨🌹 Sherry
I am glad you are writing through this. This was both painful and hopeful to read. I am also grieving some of these losses that you shared and others too. Your writing is therapeutic for you and for us, the readers who do not have the eloquent words to express our grief, so we use yours. I love you, Alex!
I'm so sorry for your losses. This is beautiful
Oh Alex. My heart feels the pain of your loss. Not the actual pain of YOUR loss as that is something only you go through. Yet, we went through 18 to 20 months of ten losses, all close...and one suicide. To be honest, the pain of loss doesn't really leave. We work around it and live life differently. We will have trigger moments where we shed a tear, or other moments when we smile or laugh out loud at good or funny memories. Just by putting pen to paper, writing down your emotions, your thoughts, your musings is healing. Bless you both. Love from Scotland.
I feel the mourning in my soul, our Isabel crossed the rainbow bridge in January, my hole deep, my only “baby”. The two I carried inside me never took a breath, Isabel made me a momma. I cry often yet put on a brave face. The struggle is hard. Life moves on, much to look forward to though it won’t be the same.
I’m sorry you and Kelly have suffered such loss in the last few years, sending hugs to you both.
Your pain is palpable through your words. It’s difficult when we have these kinds of times happen. Death is never easy to face at any time, tougher still when it seems to just not stop. I went through a lifetime like that between 8/2003-11/2004 with losing 8 close people. It takes time to recover.
Writing is a salve which we can apply liberally and as often as needed. No prescription needed, no critics allowed. Stay true to what you do so well and to yourself. ❤️
I finally felt like I could read your writing. My little girl Yuma passed away on May 25, 2024. Two days before my birthday. I had prayed to God to please take her in her sleep because I didn’t want her to die in a clinical setting and I hated making the final decision. The decision still haunts me but I’m so grateful that she didn’t die in her sleep. I held her in my arms while the vet gave the injection. With my right hand I felt her last heart beat and in my left ear I heard her final pant. I just hope she felt comforted by me holding her so close. I cry every day. I’ve only picked up her bed from the kitchen. Her bed in our bedroom is still there. I still say goodnight to her every night. I still thank God for her every night. So much more to say. Thanks for sharing. Peace
Wow, I felt all of that. It hurt my heart and made me think of my passed away fur children. Its always sad, but later its nice to think of funny stuff or sweet stuff they did. When its your time to leave this earth, Pilgrim will be waiting on you along with everyone that you love who has gone before you.
My husband and I are at an age where we attend funerals instead of baby showers but we have each other, 2 living kids, 8 grandkids , my mom and my late son’s and widow-her new husband and the bonus granddaughter.
Our son’s death at age 36 of Frontal Temporal Dementia knocked us sideways, sucked the air from our world but we have family and 2 corgis and 2 cats to love and live for.
The sun rises everyday and we must meet our ourselves and thrive.
Good luck and best wishes
I know where you are coming from, my 12 year old who was my heart granddaughter Ayla shot and killed herself and I have never felt so much pain in my life and then I lost my little dog Coco. GOD BLESS
May God bless you and keep you close Donna. I cannot comprehend that pain. 🙏❤️🌹🌹🌹🌹😇
Alex, I can't begin to tell you how touched I was listening to you and reading this from you about loss.
I have always said that the thing that bothers me the most about getting older, is that the people I have had in my life were getting much older, and I began to loose them. One by one, I had to say goodbye to the people I have loved for a lifetime. I did not deal with it well at all. I am a Christian, and my faith helped me to come to terms with the fact, that dying is something we all will have to experience.
I believe what scares us the most about death, is the unknown. I have been a huge Harry Potter fan since my youngest daughter was in school and those books came out and I started reading them with her, trying to get the stinker to love reading. She adored those books. Anyway, y know I ramble ☺️, When his Godfather, Sirius Black died, and Harry asked his spirit if dying hurt, he replied “It's easier than falling asleep “, and that has stuck with me. I know thst may sound childish to some. But it actually gave me a peace about going to the next journey. Of course, as a Christian I believe that it is not the end, but if I have lived a good life as God tells me to in the Bible, I will have a journey ahead so wonderful my mind can't even comprehend.
Even all the trials and troubles we have all faced, have helped make us the person we are.
The most important thing to me, is to let the good things in our past take more hold on us and the bad things show us what kind of life and person we don't want to be.
You are a precious soul. You and Kelly are so sweet and have hearts bigger than the state you live in. You are good people, and I know you are going to be so happy with Kelly by your side from now on. Cherish each other, and Every. Single. Second., that you get to spend time with each other. Never take each other for granted.
I have been a widow (I hate that word) for almost 12 years now. I miss him every day, and yes, I still talk to him a lot 😉❤️.
Try not to get to bogged down in losing loved ones, but continue to cherish their memories and keep them alive and close by talking about them, recalling happy times, and celebrating their lives. And while you do that, live your life to the fullest! ✨🌹 With compassion and love and caring,
Sherry 🤗🤗✨🌹
P. S., to the other thing I wrote. I also still have crying spells, and get sad about losing my loved ones. That is something that is very normal, and we will always have times when our hearts are so full of love for them still, it overflows in tears of sadness because we can't get a hug and kiss and miss their physical presence so much. We just have to get thru those times as best we can. ✨🌹 Sherry
I am glad you are writing through this. This was both painful and hopeful to read. I am also grieving some of these losses that you shared and others too. Your writing is therapeutic for you and for us, the readers who do not have the eloquent words to express our grief, so we use yours. I love you, Alex!
So sorry for your losses, Alex and Kelly.
I appreciate you sharing your thoughts with us. Its not easy to do. Youre so good at it and your words are so beautiful to read😍
You honor all this loss so beautifully.